Monday morning mantra: Love Never Fails
from Dalai Lama ‘Toward a Kinship of Faiths’ excerpted from Corinthians 13:1-8
“If I give all I posses to the poor and surrender my body to the flames but have not Love, I am nothing, Love is patient, Love is kind, Love does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud, it is not rude, Love is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs, Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth, it always protects , always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres, love never fails.”
Today when me thinks me a let down, …just another inadequate contender.
Proof that life does exist beyond my pain struck me - between the eyes.
So I cried.
Someone else has seen me, through my un-intentional guise, and found out my smile may be concealing a dirty secret.
I have been given the unique opportunity to engage in trust.
Human trust, shake hands and a couple of hugs, hugs are good.
Take the time to acknowledge I have been in/ am in ‘flare-up’ mode and feel it entirely necessary to withdraw from a recent endeavor I have tried to immerse myself in - new things, the new people, the new gig, dress to impress, but don’t loose the connection to me to oneself - don’t wait until it’s too late.
But lo and behold humanity rings true, I was recognized as a contributor, a part of something very personal to another dis-eased person, me in my broken state, is me. I used to accept only moments that are good, moments I can see without the pain-shades. I am apparently worth the time and training and given great opportunity great thanks to a heartfelt and compassionate talk, not text or email or mobile, with a peer and teacher, or even an employer.
Today I have some faith.
I try That’s what I do, then I fail, because I try, that’s what I do.
Though I tried and failed, have I succeeded?
I did not - not try, and succeed - perhaps that is what is needed.
Undo the effort - wait like water - do try - to do - not without thought but that which is thought-full and mind-full of all of every living thing. (…in the best interest of every living thing, really? that is a very large responsibility.)
I am because I say I am and that’s just me, I am me, but not the one that was though I wish, no I am just a different ‘one’, I am ‘this’ one, the same one yet different. Still me but not one I can see here now.
I do see back! I have that power that powerful power to see the past. My past is not past as I sometimes carry, often pontificate and more often drag, the past, forward into the present evidently altering my future. My Future, Directly influenced by my past that is held so intimately close - destroying my present - MY Present my gift to myself/not-self is - this present, this preciousness, …This Precious Present!
I rolled off of my plank this morning having a “VBD” (Very Bad Day) and it had only just begun. I did my morning prayers and asanas and then a 22 min Sit.
I was still nowhere near functionality, in any respect. I did truly want to make Poep Sa’s Mindfulness Yoga class at 9a, so with a gust of energy that I discovered in my motives, I processed the 7 blocks to TuYo (Tucson Yoga). Each block, or each intersection and what felt like every step, I wanted to turn around and head back home.
I just kept telling myself to get there, even If I didn’t ‘stay’ for the class, I could just wave hi and excuse myself, though by the time I made it to TuYo I had accomplished SO much already, I didn’t see Poep Sa’s car and thought I was early, poped my head in the door and Bradford Trojan was subbing in.
Well, I DID make it here, I should at least TRY to set up and get on the floor, at least its about 50 degrees Warmer than my place! There were two suggestions from other classmates to work on the neck & Shoulders as well as the low back and hips, JUST MY SPOTS of PAIN Today!! Plus I didn’t even have to make my situation known, which I dislike doing.
Insanity pauses for righteousness! Always!!